I saw Big Bro on my way to school! But since he’s walking and I’m cycling, so I think I should just go on first and just greet him after we arrived later 🙂 Somehow I was smiling alone! Big Bro‘s back! He wasn’t back to Osaka yet huh? Just on leave for some conference 🙂 *yay!!*
I feel happy for his back, but I can feel that something wrong with me. It’s like I didn’t understand what Suzuki-san taught me yesterday – the accurate way to place the powder on the sample holder before it could be diffracted by X-Ray. I took an hour just to arrange the placement! How could!
Ok. So now I can handle the XRD machine by myself…. I thought so but somehow the machine kept buzzing the alarm sound. O my! Have I did sth wrong? So I have to call Abe-san for help! O yeah… he’s always being the BIG help! 🙂
And then…. the problem… AGAIN. I estimated the time to use the XRD machine is until 3 pm but it’s like even though I know my diffraction will be finished after 3, I still did it! So! What’s the problem? The problem is, I took the time of someone that will use the machine after me (happened to be a girl from the next lab). When I asked Big Bro, he quickly lead me to the lab to apologize to the girl. O my! Big Bro, it’s obviously MY mistake, why would you apologize it for me? m(_ _)m Luckily the girl won’t take much time for her sample, so it’ll be ok even if I already took 15 minutes of her time. I am really sorry m(_ _)m
Then I’m done with XRD. Phew~ Can’t believe I spent the whole day today JUST for XRD. And now for the very first I think about the data analysis for REAL. I flipped those sheets again & again, not knowing what am I supposed to do with them. I don’t know if I made it too obvious or it’s just Big Bro being REALLY CONCERNED about me, especially this recent. So he asked me if I need his help, before I could issue it first! O my! Big Bro, you read my mind? 😮
Again, no just explained and asked me to do what I have to do, he would bring me to the place and make sure he’s there, listening & eyeing the things being explained to me so he would re-explain if I don’t understand or forgotten! You see how concerned he is? Ok, he even keep his eye on me during I did the data analysis – o yeah my sixth sense never got it wrong (I’ve been seen by somebody), he really did seeing me all the way to make sure I got it right! Big Bro stop it please. I’ve already owed you BIG time, now what? You want me to owe you a LIFE? Please don’t!
And at the very end of the day, I’m going to take out my 3rd sintering samples out from reactor as the last thing I do for today. While I thought I’m moving the crucibles placed without their cover on the table but sheathed by tissue, I accidentally spilled their contents! I was panicked! And then I found out they’re Suzuki-san‘s samples. O my goodness?! What have I done? I quickly apologized but I knew that apologies alone won’t do any. And to make me worse, when I asked him if he needs to re-do the samples, he simply said,
“No. You don’t have to blame yourself”
or specifically he said,
“No. You don’t have to feel responsibled for it”
Man! I wished he had raise his voice up high and scolded me for what I have done, the most terrible & careless mistake ever. Why won’t I spilled my own samples & redo them again? Why would I spilled others’? 😦 I felt terrible.
I heard Kawasaki & Satou laughing hard in the student room. I know their intention – to switch my attention or easy to say, to break my “gloomy” mode. But it doesn’t work! I’m sorry guys. You all too nice to me. But I need lessons to correct me. I really do. So that I won’t repeat it next time. I am really sorry. m(_ _)m