Ahhh… kinda addicted to write a blog in Japanese, but longed to write in English! 😛
I had my first presentation, the biggest presentation ever for me since I have to present alone in front of Prof. (Daddy) and the other 7 students under his supervise today.
I planned to start doing the material – we are required to prepare the prints to be distributed to all members – since the end of last month, but I delayed everything ever since I’m back from Career Fair 😦
And I never expected this presentation we called 検討会 (kentou-kai) will be exactly the same as our 雑誌会 (zasshi-kai) [where we present other’s journal that we think related to our research field] – we will be asked here & there about our own research!
No need to say about being asked by Prof, but to stand in front of people alone would make my whole body shaking.
I hate presentations, I hate all the stuffs related to “appeal yourself” in front of people.
But I have no choice.
This is a training to face & deal with people. If I can’t stand & face my lab members which I met everyday, talked to everyday, how could I face people out there?
I tried my best within the limited time.
There’s only a day before the presentation but I haven’t had my materials done yet.
I did my research on as many articles I can, trying to fit in their concept and application to my own research, but I’ve lost in the middle.
Yesterday when I got back home at 5.30, I took some light meal and went to sleep for 4 hours and forced myself to wake up at 10 just to finish the materials.
I managed to have all the things done at around 4 am and never went back to sleep after that.
So my head is like spinning at 2000 rpm now, more than a centrifuge could spin!
We started our kentou-kai at 1.30 afternoon and ended exactly at 5.00 pm.
Our first presentator was Tomo-chan.
He did come late and even skipped his 2nd period lecture.
Reason? – Overslept.
Huhu. Now you really should stop staying at lab until late at night, you really have to! I never heard you overslept before, except you’re not feeling well.
I sensed that he was rushing – from the material making until his presentation.
Indeed his presentation is a little hard to understand but being first presentator is always TOUGH.
Prof. is too “energetic” to pay attention at every single thing you say, at every single thing you wrote on your material.
It was his “JOB” to find out the imperfection in your work, it’s always like that.
So poor my Tomo-chan, being commented since beginning and always paused in the middle! よく頑張ったよでも、友ちゃん！:)
I asked Mitchie to let me be the last presentator, coz I really don’t have the courage to present.
Seeing my material, compared it to the others’, I have no chance to be praised.
But instead Daddy said it was a good start for me. I was shocked!
I didn’t write much, and I bit my tongue a lot during presentation.
And I felt like the things I wrote were all nonsense and non-related to my research.
But yeah, I feel relieved.
Not because I received good comments, but because the biggest disaster in my mind is now flown away.
Tomo-chan started it for today and I’ll ended it.
p/s : I feel terribly sorry for him. I wanted to say to him personally he did well, but just Daddy wanted him to be better so the manly way to do it, always goes by harsh words. Daddy didn’t mean those words Tomo-chan, he just wanted you to be better. That’s mean he’s hoping more from you. I know you can 😉 頑張ってね、友ちゃん！